I have such a strong urge to email Mum to tell her about the pay rise and the bonus I got today.

Its good news, made me very happy. I'm so lucky to have this job. I just really wish I could share that happiness. I know Mum would be very proud. She would say something like "Good on you! You're worth it and more."

So maybe she did just write that, through me. I don't mean that in a paranormal sense, but I mean that her way of thinking was imprinted upon my mind, in fact I'd say my brain probably shares some of the exact same mapping. So in effect she is alive, inside the people she cared for and to whom she gave her kindness and love. I should give her voice more often.